Peter Rollins and The God-Shaped Hole
After the post on the origins of the “It’s Pentecost” video went up, my creative partner-in-crime Ben Cieslik directed me to the actual Pete Rollins quote that inspired our work. I’m pretty sure this was the first time I’d seen this video, so I’ve probably been misquoting him second-hand for years!
In any event, I thought I’d post the video below. As is often the case when I listen to Pete, I have two reactions. The dominant one is a sense of gratitude and appreciation for how he regularly frames the message of the gospel in a compelling and surprising way that therefore not only gets my attention and but stays with me. Often he does this by taking an element of the faith that I thought I understood and turning it a bit upside down, forcing me to call into question my assumptions and leading me to re-appropriate this part of my faith in a new and dynamic way. He is thoughtful, edgy, and oh-so-much-cooler than I could ever dream of being. 🙂
At the same time, I also often think that he makes his point by going to the other extreme, grabbing a metaphor that perhaps ends up being equally outrageous when held in isolation. Perhaps this is simply the cost of being provocative. Or maybe it’s needing to live a little more, a little longer, and being willing to live into the tensions of actual life as well as those of theological thought.
So when I read his The Fidelity of Betrayal, for instance, I totally got his point that sometimes you have to stand against the church you love and risk “betraying” it because you love it and want to call it back to faithfulness. But of course that’s more the perception of betrayal than actual betrayal where you are ultimately giving little to no thought to the welfare of the one with whom you’ve been in relationship. In Pete’s use of betrayal, it’s actually not his intent to betray but to reform. So while I appreciated the book, I left with the distinct impression that Pete hasn’t actually been betrayed in a relationship or he wouldn’t take this metaphor quite so seriously or so far.
In this video I love the idea that the encounter with God creates greater desire for God. And I totally agree that we can make faith, and even our relationship with God, mechanistic, even instrumental, when we simply want God to solve our problems. When God becomes largely an answer to our questions and needs, then finally our faith is all about us, not a response to the wild and unpredictable mercy of God.
So, yes, God doesn’t just fill the holes we have, God often creates bigger ones. That’s what inspired us to do the “It’s Pentecost” video and I’m grateful for the way Pete got us going.
At the same time, I’ve always been captivated by the sentiment expressed by the seventeenth-century philosopher Blaise Pascal in his book Pensees that, “There is a God-shaped vacuum in the heart of every person, and it can never be filled by any created thing. It can only be filled by God, made known through Jesus Christ.” From both experience and study, I also think we carry around with us a “God-shaped hole,” and I think we can know that we lack something – or maybe it’s sensing that we lack Something – even before an encounter with God. (Contra Pete, I do think, actually, that lots of people have deeply desired a child before having a child to desire.) Indeed, one of the consistent themes, I think, of Scripture is that God has placed inside of us the desire for God even when we don’t know what to call it. One of my favorite instances of this is the Teacher’s declaration in Ecclesiastes that “God has placed eternity” into our hearts (3:11). St. Augustine captures much the same thing when he says in the opening lines of his Confessions that “We are restless until we rest in thee.” And George Herbert gives voice to the same God-created sense of longing in his poem, “The Pulley.”
Moreover, precisely because we sense that hole but don’t know God alone can fill it, we are open to having our need exploited. In a chapter on sin and the fall in Making Sense of the Christian Faith, that’s how I interpreted the Adam and Eve story: that they knew they had a need, a desire, even a lack, and that they were tricked into thinking it was an apple-shaped hole rather than a God-shaped hole. Marketers throughout history have similarly played upon and at times exploited that sense of need by convincing us it was a brand name sneaker-shaped hole, or a particular car-shaped hole, or a laptop-(here comes that apple, again 🙂 )-shaped hole, or whatever.
So there it is: God both creates holes and fills them. And we can mistakenly try to fill those holes by acquiring more stuff – whether the stuff be sneakers and laptops, wealth and power, or fame and fans or whatever. And we can turn our relationship with God into one more way to meet our (mis)perceived needs and mistake the nature and purpose of faith altogether. Because faith, ultimately, doesn’t bring the world to heel or stop all the instability and chaos that’s going on around. Rather, faith gives us the ability to keep our feet amid the tremors, to keep moving forward even when assumptions and misperceptions are crashing down around us, and to hold onto the promises of God because we believe God is first holding onto us.
But enough from me, let’s give Pete his due with another word of thanks for his provocatively faithful and faithfully provocative voice. And after you’ve watched, let me know what you think. Hole or no hole? God-filled or God-created? Both, neither, something in between? I’d love to hear your stories.
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2) 200 Dollar Conversations is another great video by The Work of the People – gosh I like their stuff! 🙂
I’m reminded of a couple of lines from Jackson Browne’s “Looking East”
…there’s a God sized hunger living underneath the laughing and the rage.
…there’s a God sized hunger underneath the questions of the age
I RE-ENTERED THE GOOD NEWS THRU THE GOSPEL OF Jackson Browne WHEN I WAS AN ACTIVE ALCOHOLIC. ANOTHER GREAT LINE THAT GOT THRU THE ALCOHOLIC FOG;’PAGES TURNING, PAGES WE WERE YEARS FROM LEARNING STRAIGHT INTO THE NIGHT OUR HEARTS WERE FLUNG. YOU GOT TO BRING YOUR OWN REDEMPTION WHEN YOU COME’. THIS IS FROM ‘THE BARRICADES OF HEAVEN’ A SONG ON’LOOKING EAST’.
As far as the Desire-for-a-child thing goes, the essential distinction is between the desire for A child and the desire for THE child one recieves. On the one hand some people do not experience what they would call a desire to have a child but once they meet their child – so often at birth – they fall in love. I watched this happen to my brother. On the other hand I always did desire a child AND came to desire my child at birth. The distinction is key to making his point. Many people do have a God shaped hole, as many desire A child. But do they upon meeting the God we know in Jesus Christ and Salvation History of Israel allow that hole to be reshaped as a parent’s desire for A child is reshaped by THE child they receive? As shamful as it can be to admit, gender, athletic or scholastic aptitude, or sexual orientation can be challenges to a parent’s love; much as many people are challenged by the offense of the cross or the theodicy dilemma.
i’m somewhat enamored with Rollins’ work as of late. Fidelity of Betrayal was fabulous. at least, i think it was. one think that has stuck with me is his use of story and parable.
i love the fact that after reading the book, i feel as though i have more questions. isn’t this the point? aren’t we supposed to walk away from books, classes, sermons, asking more questions – searching for meaning? as Rollins says in How (Not)To Speak of God, “Jesus made his conversations salty – that people would thirst for more.” that’s good right there.
the bible, as it has been preached and taught might be preached and taught by a corporation as a guidebook to new employees about how to conduct themselves on the job in a meritocracy.